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i was very thankful..indeed, it was an eye opening journey for me..

it happened to me..yeah, all this while, they were just a dream..(yeah, a dreamer i am..always, now and then)

yeeeee..this date, 22 july 2014!! i met what i'd dreamt offfff!! mr pilot yang kacak lagi bergayaa lagi baik lagii lagii lagii(he wasnt on duty..so he was in casual attire okay, not in his uniform**to mind)..hahaha!! can't you see how excited i am?? imagine how was i after the flight!! senyum lebar sampai ke telinga lah apa lagii and bercerita pada kawan seflight sampai naik meluat orang tu!!hahha

how it started!! untuk nadia, who'd never ever talked/ had conversation with orang yang tak dikenali in any previous flight to and fro kl-cairo..it was really a big achievement when i did so!! i felt awesome and shocked myself..yep..veryy..plus, because we can laugh together, i mean, nadia, this nadia, can borak-borak sembang and bergelak tawa dengan that kind of person..never thought i actually can be like that..

so indeed, it inspired me..yeah, that conversation and mr.pilot himself..very inspiring..

you know, i was actually still somewhat in the state of "frustration" that day..kind of orang baru putus cinta ?? hahah..but sejurus after the conversation, i felt "OKAY" yes, the kind of "okay nadia, lets do this!! you can do better, you can be better, you will get the best ....." thinking menyelinap masuk ke hati dan minda..simultaneously!! terus!!

okay, so here's how it started

1-18B lucky enough..wing, seat beside the window seat..i sat there first..till mr.kacak finally came!! first sight : HANDSOME!!!!! with the shades on!! 8-) :D :D

2- AWKWARD to the max!!!! how should i describe huh!! okay, apa lagi mula la mata melilau area aisle..tengok semua orang yang masih sibuk mencari seat dan uruskan bag masing-masing.

3- after take off, mr pilot move to the back..with the gorgeous cabin crew (he said)

4- so i took his seat!! HAHHA! because that seat i'd always want!!the window seat!! apa lagi mmg gua conquer la both seats dgn dua skrin tu!! satu dengar lagu satu main game etc..kahkah sampailah that skrin on my original seat got stucked!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..so biar lah for the moment..tak sangka pulak mr tu datang balik afterwardssss..hahha!! malu beb!!

5- plus minus 45 mins before landing, he came back!!! omggggggg i took his seat!!! so, mr tu pun duduklah at my seat!! masa ni rasa bersalah yang amat..you know , just because his seat is at the window seat!! ramai orang memang sengaja pilih seat tu kot, and now aku pandai-pandai ikut suka hati tanpa mintak dulu sit at his!! so i was contemplating lah, nak mintak maaf ke taknak..but then, i remain silent je untuk masa tu..hmmm

6- maybe because mr tu dah mula taktau nak buat apa, awkward balik ke apa..so dia pun ambik le headset dalam seat pocket tu..oh oh oh..and that was mine!! aku dah guna, segan kotttt..so, i took his, yang memang aku tak guna pun lagi and hands over to him.."ermmm you can use this.." sambil ambil dia punya headset in the seat pocket infront me of course!

7- the headset yet not bringing up any talk between us..but thennnnn..when he started to use the inflight screen yang mana aku dah stuck-kan tadi..omggggggggggggggg againnnnnnn, me monologged "should i tell him? should i should i should i..."

so at last, dengan penuh rasa bersalah bila tengok mr tu tekan tak dapat-dapat, i go "sorryyy..it's stucked..my fault..errr really sorryyyy.."/"oh it stucked? no no its okay.." with a very macho voiceeeeeee..oh oh oh..hahahahha

after that, he started talking to me..oh yeah oh yeah, i pun layan je lah..we chitchatting for the last 30-45 mins on board..very happy, i was genuinely very happy..

but somehow, i feel the barrier there..the language and the knowledge (general one) which i need improvement badly..i need to read more, learn to speak fluently, better better better, i desperately need to be better..insyaAllah, i will someday be that better person i dream to be..insyaAllah..

and to mr.pilot, thank you, seriously thank you so much (tho you might never able to read this), you nicely spoken to me, indeed has brought me to new dimension of life itself, indirectly, bringing me to the new me yang tak pernah aku fikirkan boleh jadi sebegitu..

and yeah, don't speculate. this is just an inspiring moment for me..never ever came across my mind or even heart of getting crush on him..no, not to that level..sedar diri jugak lah dulu yee..nak yang terbaik, kena cuba jadi yang terbaik dulu (mission from now on)..insyaAllah

after all, i know, this is the fate, yang telah Dia takdirkan untuk aku,yelah, mana taknya, setiap kali stalk orang, setiap kali tu lah frust berganda-ganda, terluka berganda-ganda, dan Allah maha tahu..thank God, He gave me the oppotunities to prove myself that i actually can do better can be better..alhamdulillah..terima kasih ya Allah, for the nice companion.

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cairo airport - waiting for boarding