I am crying like a child now.
Sobbing.
Wanting to be taken care of.
I'm just tired..of independant life; physically & emotionally.
Someone to rely upon is something I want so bad.
Assalamualaikum guys 😉
This date need to be documented, I thought.
1/6/2018
ZY and I had our first official date. Nothing romantic but fulfilling it was.
We met at mum's memorial. Haha I was the one who chose the venue 😂. Well it was Ramadhan, so to meet without any purpose would have been quite awkward. I brought white paint, painted mum's grave, he recited Yaasin and then we drove off to Clinic to clean his surgical wound.
There were few obstacles but yeay we made it! I just loooove how it was.
Love you sayang 😘
For goodness sake..I am so childish!
26 and still bickering with my siblings
and want to know what worse ? they are only primary school ages 😬
Assalamualaikum readers 🤗
The start of holiest month of all, Ramadhan tomorrow.
I'd been sinning like never before, and have to mention, I hate that side of me.
So with this new month, with all the blessings Ramadhan carry in it, I really really hope it gonna be a new beginning to you and me. Let's for real, with full determination, try our best to cleanse ourselves from all the sinful deed (small or big, whatever it is) that we've done in the past.
Nobody is perfect, everybody sinned but we can always give our very best shot for a change.
Have a blessed Ramadhan everyone! 💙
Hello assalamualaikum guys..
Been a while, and now its April 2018 already! how time flies!
Well nothing really change with the new year, or maybe just not yet.
Okay, a little life update.
I started my 2018 doing attachment in PPUiTM Sungai Buloh. All thanks to Kak Hana's father for arranging everything from A to Z. There I learned and experienced a sneak peek of real life as a doctor. The senior doctors aka my supervisor were very nice to me, or should I say very patient (?) Because you know, I was extremely slow doing my task to an extent that even me frustrated with myself. Two and half months there, and I decided to call it off. Too much stress from too little knowledge.
Personal life? I mean love life..I don't know. Sometimes happy, sometimes zzzz . Or maybe I am still not ready for any mature relationship? I don't know guys..CLINGY..thats my problem. I want him to be as clingy as I am towards him, but he is nothing like that. I love him, sincerely..but I honestly don't know if he loves me the same, because I don't think he adore me as much.
What should I do? Should I continue staying in this relationship? I don't know..
Frankly speaking, this is not the adult life that I have been dreaming to have, and in fact far from what I've been hoping for. Nothing near. Jobless and lifeless at 26 well who would ever dreamt of having this kind of life kan?
Still alive..something I should forever be grateful for.
Alhamdulillah anyways.
