so today, the past 2 days's thought really came to me. again. The satan keep poisoning my mind with all sorts of negative thinking..so again the silly me, being easily influenced, almost filled up my day with 1001 complain. this and that..everything came to me today was just nonsense..
I actually started my day happily..but heck, during rheumato session, just out of sudden I felt like I wasn't fit to be there..I felt sooo small *mentally and spiritually of course, as physically I am petite already*..almost every time after rheuma session actually, I feel that, and today seems to be the day I reached my limit..
back home..hungry and stress..feeling lonely for awhile..checking all sorts of social media I have, hoping a chat box to pop..and yeah..none..so last resort is to pop into family group ws..there I ended up complaining and saying all words of my mind..regretting this and that..the unsatisfaction etc etc..which later *which is now* I regret.
yes..how ungrateful I was today..how childish I am at this age..thinking those small unproblematic things as the big world's problem..may He forgive and guide me towards a better me..
each day, I tried to be as positive as possible yet sometimes I still failed..hoping tomorrow brings the positive nadia all day long! :-)
good night! may God bless us all.
