night thought #1
4:15 PM
so i was blog reading from one to one site
then again, this sudden thought came to me
"..seriously what was i thinking back then? why the heck did i chose medicine of all path?.."
yes, seriously why nadia?? why??
yeah, i accept it has to be my fate..accept it already la girl!
sure, it's not that i'm not grateful for what and where i am now..but still -,-'' hmm
you know, the fact that i am scared of every single disease of the lesson i had each day..
how i feel i have them all on me..how i exaggerated every symptoms when i did get sick sometimes
what more -,- so not cool of me..ughh
so whilst i read those written words, the "..how lucky she is, living the life she wants.." really bug me off. it was just me with no clear vision back then..
then again, this sudden thought came to me
"..seriously what was i thinking back then? why the heck did i chose medicine of all path?.."
yes, seriously why nadia?? why??
yeah, i accept it has to be my fate..accept it already la girl!
sure, it's not that i'm not grateful for what and where i am now..but still -,-'' hmm
you know, the fact that i am scared of every single disease of the lesson i had each day..
how i feel i have them all on me..how i exaggerated every symptoms when i did get sick sometimes
what more -,- so not cool of me..ughh
so whilst i read those written words, the "..how lucky she is, living the life she wants.." really bug me off. it was just me with no clear vision back then..
whatever it is, I am still lucky having endocrine and rheumato as my very first round..what not, with me lazying around, touch books for only plus minus1 hour total each day..that surely won't do for a critical course like cardio or neuro.
may my study spirit be with me the moment I wake up tomorrow. God bless.
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